Positives are very hard to find…and I know this won’t resonant with everyone, but for those that can relate…is this what we have left…what we need to do? …
Lots of friends have been so kind
They cannot know…but I don’t mind
Supportive words and sympathy
So often wash right over me
I see thier partnerships progress
To them my heartache seems much less
…but we know things are different now
And no one understands just how
Just sitting here as time goes by
I know that soon someone will die
Only then will dawn reality…
…the one that’s left will feel like me
And all the heartache we’ve been through
For them this pain will start anew
There is no way I can explain
How life can never be the same
When inevitably things occur
I only hope that we’ll be there
To lend a hand and make some sense
By using our experience
And so I watch and wait and cry
Tick off the days as time goes by
We went first…we know the way
Pathfinders you could maybe say
…I wish we weren’t 
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Hi, as always with your poems ,very true to our life now . Im sure before we lost our one true loves , we never realised the devastation it would bring or how really hard this trying to live would now be , so hardly suprising that those who havnt lost a life partner , would understand .
I also wish we werent pathfinders . Thank you for sharing your thoughts xtake carex
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So very very true. I didnt realise just how devastating being a widow (i hate that word, its reminds me of a spider) would be. I knew id be very sad but this is beyond sadness!! Its almost every waking minute im thinking and longing to be with my lovely husband. Its six long months tonight since, miss him so much. Its definitely like youve had an amputation. People think life goes on but mine never will, he was my life and hes gone. I still cant get my head around it.
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@Miniaturist5 hi, so sorry for your loss ,
I also hate the word widow. I think most widows do , it seems like a label we have now , we arent a person , a wife/ husband just an awful label .
Six months , you will be still in deepest despair and the brain fog or as i call it broken brain makes it so worse .
It will be three years in september since my happy life ended , i really cant say it gets easier , but i have accepted this is my life now , not a life i ever imagined . I still yearn for my husband every day .just want to hold and kiss him , and gaze into his eyes ,seeing all the love he has for me .
Yes i maybe partly living in the past , but it was a nicer place than whatever future is in store for me .xtake carex
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