I’ve had dreams including my husband, I wake up very disturbed and sad for the rest of the day. I miss him so much xx
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Jeez … so glad you changed drs !! Xxx
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So am I! Now not feeling quite so dreadful, well most of the time. Thanks xx
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Strictly tonight @Pudding ! Highlight of my week ! And the im a celebrity starts tomorrow night … i like that too … xx
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@deb5 never got into I’m a celebrity.
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Oh its good u should try watch it …
The dreams I have of my husband seen so real, and so upsetting, as in the dream I can never reach him. Or else I can’t find him. Breaks my heart every time
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Me too, it’s heartbreaking 
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The dreams are so real aren’t they. Then you wake up and remember.
Just to nearly reach out and touch them…
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@Deb5 I actually watched strictly tonight, through my tears.
And I enjoy celebrity, although I haven’t heard of many of them this year.
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Yes they just quietly slip away 
I think you dream a lot at beginning … i did … i heard him talking to me, i used to literally see him walking down the road even though i knew it was just my brain playing tricks with me …so sad innit ? I think you are all in early days arent you ? ;( takes time …
Glad you watched strictly @Paddy53 , celebrity get me out of here has got nigel farage in, Josie gibson from this morning, cant remember the rest ? Be good i think 
xx
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I wish I could dream. See her in my dreams but atm I can’t. I am just living the nightmare. A waking nightmare….
Reliving the last days. Constantly going over if I did this that and the other would it if worked out different!
Looking for her like some sort of demented lost sole………
Maybe I am that demented lost sole….
I can’t find peace in something I’m not at peace with………
Can’t get over I’ll never see her face again. Hold her close and hear her voice…….
If one more person tells me “oh you’re doing so well” I swear I’ll launch them down the street.
Not in a good place this evening………
Off to bed now to lay at stare at the ceiling instead of the tv…….
Take care all of you. Your in my thoughts xxxx
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You take care too. Youre so early in in this journey ! Its so awful at beginning i know, i remember … if it helps you it gets better you know … not perfect but better 
look after yourself xxx
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There is really nothing to say that makes it better, but it does ease a bit over time, so very sorry we have this now, so sad x
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Grief is very physical isn’t it, it hurts and is exhausting. I get very tired, mainly I think, because sleep at night is difficult and dreams very disturbing. It’s all sad and heartbreaking there’s nothing more to say, except keep going, I think it gets a big easier at least I hope it does xx
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Morning, all.
I also lost about half a stone between my wife passing and the funeral 2 weeks later. I just used to forget to eat in amongst the adrenaline fuelled shock that took over. I have had a couple of dreams about her, one pleasant, where she was healthy and well, and one not so pleasant where she was very ill, as she was towards the end. I long to dream of her but can’t for some reason.
I have started wearing a dental retainer around the house because i clench my teeth very hard to the point where my jaw aches - another classic stress reaction.
Take care.
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Yeh it does get easier but its a bumpy road - its such a hard road … i wish people would try understand more - they have so little empathy …they dont really understand the pain we go through and we just have to take care of ourselves really ! As someone said to me at beginning - lots of self care … baths, sleep , rest, trying to get some fresh air… xx
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Thankyou kathy yes im eating bit better now too lots of love to you xx
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We can do this 
x
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