I’ve been planning in my mind and thinking of ways my loved one and I can save money and have some trips abroad, where we’d go etc, I found flights, accommodation. And save for a deposit on a house.
I’ve managed to resolve some of the issues we had (which was really not being able to communicate effectively enough) through conversations together in my mind.
I’ve even planned a small simple budget wedding with everything thought about. Where, when, who, how etc… except he’s not here anymore.
I think it makes me feel slightly better, I can think of something else which feels constructive, though it’s not really.