Yes your poem is how it is and explains it so well
Yes it is like a wound
Fragile
Brave we have to be
For me feels like
Drowning in the sea
Bobbing around on a life raft
Sinking and bobbing along
Then finding an island
Then storms again
Before a calm
Falling down
Getting up
Try again find a scrap
Sunlight
Bluebells
Birdsong
Robins
Cat purring
Dawn chorus
Tick to do lists
Soak in bath
Hope
Bit of relief
Some days calm
Other days it passes
Talking in my mind
Can’t let go
The bitter sweet
Photos
His voice
Not forgotten
Want to hold on
Yet it will go
Soon gradually
You see him in your kids
In your grandkids
Folk say they remember
He did his bit
He lived
What he did is kinda still there but it will evolve
As all things do
Change
The life that shaped
And with all that it was
And still is inside me
So brave he was
He said you will be alright
He thought I would
So I tell myself that
But it is so hard
Because I struggle
We struggle
And it is how it is