I seem to be having a lot more down days than up days recently.
My mum was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in 2019 and after 10 years of fighting she lost her battle last Jan, exactly one month after she lost her father (my Grandad)
I was able to take my mum to see my grandad the 2 days before he passed and she said she will forever be in my debt for giving her those last moments.
Mum was taken into hospital on the 7th Jan, after discovering that it had spread to her brain and was more aggressive in her liver. I was so thankful that I was able to be by her side when she passed on the 24th Jan 2020.
I do feel like I am suffering with PTSD because of this though, I keep having flash backs and I can remember everything that happened on that day, all conversations I had.
I feel like I also haven’t been abele to grieve my grandad, what with my mum going so rapidly down hill so soon after his passing.
I suppose I just want to check that this feeling will fade slightly. I have tried the online counselling sessions but I feel they just didn’t work for me. Also with mothers day so soon, I am really struggling with it all…