I’m not being cold, callous, insensitive , heartless or any other adjective you wish to call me.
Regardless of whom & how we have lost them , we as adults all knew it would happen at some point - we just chose not to think of it. No-one is invincible.
I, like everyone else, struggle with what’s happened, but I can’t change anything, and so I’m doing the best I can - my way as I’d expect hubby to have done if I’d passed first.
After 50 years together there is a huge part missing in my life now - I can’t put it into words how much I miss him.
G. X