Hi everyone just wanted to see if anyone is feeling like me today? Heart broken and can’t stop crying and yearning for him. So very sad and have cried for a whole hour so far and no sighs of stopping I think it’s because I coped well yesterday and today I feel so very lonely and scared x I have to have chemotherapy for breast cancer in February followed by radiotherapy for 3 weeks and it just all seems so overwhelming without him here to help me… I love him so much and I feel I am dying with grief xx sorry to be so miserable at Christmas xxx
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Please don’t apologise @Alice8 . I can’t even begin to imagine how you’re feeling. Although I’m feeling worse today than yesterday your situation puts mine into perspective. Yo have been dealt a very cruel blow indeed. I wish I had great words of wisdom for you, but please know I will be thinking about you and sending love and hugs to you. I hope you have friends and family for support, and we are your wider family. Please keep talking to us and know that we’re here for you. Xx
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Hi @Alice8 so sorry to hear you are going through this, I hope you have some good support around you. I was terrible yesterday I cried for hours, so much so I had a blinding headache and just went to bed. I woke up different today, I just know I can’t do a Christmas like that again. Steve always said this was his day as in St Stephen’s Day so we’d go for nice food and drinks, instead I’ve bought a steak will have a few glasses of wine and I’m hoping to write a list of small things to do in 2024. Keep chatting to people on here it does help. Sending you a hug.x
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hi @Alice8 please do not apologise, your not making anyone miserable, we’re miserable because we’re all here hurting together… i am so sorry for what you’ve got to go through and for the pain and loss of your loved one. i feel like screaming and breaking down and just giving up completely. mine and the kids first xmas without my shaun, it’s been horrible, still is…
woke up this morning feeling so empty and just don’t want to do this anymore…
sending you all my love x x
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Thank you all so much for your kind and supportive replies I really appreciate them and you all do really help I am sorry that you are all also going on this terrible journey with me but I know we will look after each other and get through this together 
xxx
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Hi, just want to say i know how you are feeling. I was with family yesterday but dreaded coming into empty house. Have been crying all day and lying down. I feel so alone in my house and cant carry on like this. Cant live on my own. Was with my husband Tony for 54 years and we were always together. I feel broken inside when im on my own and just wail and cry. Family say to get used to it, but i know that wont happen. So sorry you have to have chemo for breast cancer, i had to have a snall lump removed followed by radiotherapy. Im sure you will be fine but its added stress for you. Take care and keep posting on this site. Im told we all feel this pain and are not alone. Wishing you love and good health now and in the future.
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Thanks everyone you really do help x struggling this afternoon again. I am also my dad’s carer he has stage 4 lung cancer and is 91 bless him he does well but he needed to see the doctor this morning x ita all so sad at the moment and I really don’t know how to cope with it all. I have my little 2 year old granddaughter here as looking after her today and she is a lovely distraction but the pain will come out later again xx
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@Alice8 omg you have so much going on, I really hope you have some good support around you. It’s good that you have your beautiful granddaughter to lift your spirits. Sending you a hug.x
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I must reiterate what @Scarl34 has said please do not apologise for being miserable, we are all in the same shitty situation, we’ve lost someone we Loved beyond measure.
I too had a particularly rough day yesterday & I’m not much better today being honest. I supported my Wife of 31 years Anna throughout her 16 month battle with Cancer which sadly she lost at the start of November.
I feel exactly the same as you, although you have your own battle taking place for which i pray you’ll come through.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers 
& please don’t feel the need to be sorry for how you feel.
We are all dealing with our loss in our own way, at the moment i am struggling badly to see a way forward without my Anna as everything now seems pointless without her, she was my reason for waking every morning & the pain of her not being here is becoming too much to bear. I know it’s only been a relatively short time for me & hopefully things will improve for me as time passes by. I have no Family other than my Son & Daughter who are experiencing the same loss as i. Hopefully you have some family to support you through this terribly difficult period.
I wish you Luck & good health going forward.
Take care of yourself, Sending you massive Love & hugs xx
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Dear Villaboy22
I understand your pain, so hard and beyond terrible 
our lives have changed totally as our soulmate is no longer here with us. I feel like my husband loved me unconditionally and I loved him unconditionally also and it feels like no one loves me like that now which is a very lonely feeling indeed. Very difficult to manage. I took my little grandson back home after he stayed with me overnight and on the way home again I cried all the way home on the motorway hopefully as it was getting dark no one could see my tears. It is a process and at the moment I am not focused on my own health issues just on losing my best friend. Thank you for thinking of me and keeping me in your prayers. Keep talking love
Alice
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