Just back from taking Winston and Ada for a walk around the field, they love to run about off lead, loads of bushes etc, as they ran around all the fallen sycamore leaves, my thoughts wandered to this different life I’m now living and building.
I suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude and the feeling of being blessed for the shared life I had with my husband for 52 years, 50 of those as husband and wife, we were very young when we married, we grew up together, we went through family traumas together, supporting each other, the disagreements over his channel hopping during the adverts and sometimes during an actual programme, I would welcome with open arms the chance to relive all those moments again. We grew older together, he looked after me, kept me safe, I looked after him too. we were great sounding boards for each other. we had different interests yet the same outlook on life, loved our family life together as one.
We loved our holidays to far flung places, he mocked me when I’d try new experiences, one particular experience always takes me to happier times, when we were staying in Nuevo Vallarta, I decided to try Parasailing, never done anything so daring before, so there I was, eye level with the birds over the Bay of Banderas, Alan on the beach filming my daring deed, when I landed back on terra firma I went to look at the video he’d recorded, he hadn’t turned the bloody camera on had he! the following day I repeated the experience and made sure he filmed me this time, I wanted evidence of my daring deed because no one back home would have believed me. we had many comical incidents together, far too many to count, he made everything special.
reflecting on this and the life we once had really makes me feel privileged and blessed to have loved and still love such a wonderful man, to share our lives together, to have two lovely children (now adults themselves) and to have so many shared memories to keep with me along the road of this different life as I make new memories for the both of us, my husband may no longer be by my side in the physical sense but he is ever present in the spiritual sense. As I travel this different road, so does he in spirit.
Today’s walk on the field was one of reflection, reflection in the life I once shared with my husband and anticipation of the life I now must live. Leaving a very peaceful and serene warmth in my heart.
hope today is an improvement on yesterday and tomorrow is an improvement on today