I sat with my mum over the last few weeks at a hospice while she battled on. In the last few days she was so confused, shouting and screaming in pain. I have no idea how a euthanasia law has not been passed yet because it’s traumatised me the pain and torture my poor mum had to endure.
Today she passed away while I was there but I just can’t stop seeing it, I can’t sleep, I’m so upset it’s all I can remember. There’s no good memories anymore. Does this ever stop?
Hi @Lb83,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you can connect with other members who are living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex