I lost my grandmother late last year; this wasn’t a shock and she had a long life. However, having seen her empty home on Zoopla, I am having reoccuring dreams of being in her home, and that there are various objects both sentimental (e.g passport, photos) & random bric-a-brac, that has been left behind and in these dreams i’m looking for it and collecting it. In real life, I know most of these items have been put in a skip and discarded, as my father and uncles were not very sentimental over objects; I know that some of these items include my childhood toys e.g dolls. However, I am struggling with the idea that I really wanted something physical to remember her by, and that this has been taken away from me. On the other hand, I feel guilty and embarrassed over wanting to have inanimate objects, and know deep down that these are just proxies for my grief. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?
There’s nothing to be embarrassed about. Lots of people hold onto objects which belonged to someone who has passed away. They are a link to that person. It’s unfortunate that even the photos were thrown away. Do you have any photos of your grandmother which belong to you? Maybe other relatives have some which could be copied.