I decided to go for a drive today,found myself heading North on the A1,pulled off at the sign for Newby Hall,sadly it was closed,I wandered around the outside popped into the little church,it brought back so many memories,us and the kids and grandkids used to love going there a lot,the grounds,house,playground,river rides,train rides,picnics,etc,it didn’t drag me down made me sad and content at the same time.
I am glad it didn’t drag you down. I am avoiding going anywhere we used to go for fun. I know I am not ready for that. My phone decided to start showing “Memories”. The Home Screen now shows a photo I took on our last holiday. It just makes me too sad.
There has always been a couple of wedding photos upstairs. I brought them downstairs but Katie started asking for him all over again, so I will take them back to our bedroom where they have always been.
And if I can’t reset my mobile I will ask Jamie to do it.
We are all very different about what comforts or upsets us. Xx
Sometimes we just need to visit places for whatever reason that brings us comfort.
Never been much of a churchgoer but just sat there with memories was strangely calming.
On Sunday, I visited one of our favourite places.
I he avoided it.
I told friends that I felt I wanted to visit it.
So I went with a friend.
I mainly enjoyed it but there were a couple of moments.
I didn’t break down in tears but some memories flooded back.
I am glad I did it even though the impact of the visit surfaced the next day.
You did well to face it @RoseGarden . He would be proud of you. Has it given you some peace?
Hello,
it is so good to be in contact with you
It was special to visit a place that held such significance and memories.
I was able to remember moments with fondness, sadness, regret and love for my husband .
I could see him thoroughly enjoying feeding the birds around the pond.
He was so fond of nature and in particular animals.
He really loved feeding them by hand, pure joy.
I feel now I can visit it again after avoiding it.
Yes, I think there will be tears but to be able to remember him there and have the pictures in my mind of him smiling and laughing will be very special.
Of course, I wish he could still do that.
He was a lovely man who deserved to have a longer life.
Sending a big hug.
Love,
Rose xx