I have been away for 2 weeks visiting family and friends that live far away. I was so busy I didn’t have time to get upset with people much. I also kept talking about my husband very brief to also avoid crying. I have been home less than a week but was straight back to reality coming home to an empty one.
I have read quite a few posts and related to so many, so sorry I am not messaging individually. I totally agree that people who haven’t experienced grief, particularly the loss of a partner/spouse, don’t understand. I will never get over his loss. He was my best friend. We laughed every day & he made me feel happy, safe & that everything would be ok
I don’t want to be alone and its harder as I have just been surrounded by loved ones constantly.
My heart aches from missing him
Just wanted to say I am with all of you who are grieving and not everyone will get it. Try not to waste your energy on responding. And they probably mean well but don’t know what to say
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts, but I just wanted to say thank you for so bravely sharing this with us. Keep reaching out,
Alex
It is hard when you have had company for a while. You come back down to earth with a bump. Even after a few hours having someone to talk to takes your mind off the continual sadness and loneliness. I understand how you are feeling and share your pain. People who have not experienced this cannot really understand how all consuming the pain is. They mean well and think they are being supportive. But everyone here is on the same path.
Sending love and strength. Xx
I ended up meeting friends for a two hour lunch which lifted my spirits. But still hard going to an empty house. So many other things are on my mind too but I appreciate the support I get from sharing here.
I walk round the house like a lost soul, talking to him. No wonder I don’t get signs or dreams. He is probably fed up hearing me grumbling.
I sometimes put the television on, just for background noise. Can’t listen to music yet, the lyrics make me sad.
Life sucks, doesn’t it?
Xx
I haven’t had any signs or dreams. I wouldn’t think he is sick of hearing you. And to me it’s not grumbling, it’s expressing your loss & showing how much you love him. I have a journal that I write to him most nights.
I listen to songs even though it makes me sad as it makes me feel connected to him.
12 weeks today since my husbands life was taken from this world, in a matter of minutes. One of our daughters has renamed Saturday as Sadtoday.
I feel sad and empty. I miss him so much. He had so much more to give.
It is cruel when our loved ones are taken away. Even though my husband was at a palliative stage he wasn’t at end of life yet. Or do we thought. He died at 445am and was due for a blood transfusion at least at 9am which is still hard to digest.
I know it’s hard but be kind to yourself whether it be just feeling your feelings or getting some fresh air it having a cuppa.