Hi newbie here. I lost my darling Michael just over 5 weeks ago. It was sudden and totally unexpected. I came home and found him dead. Obviously because of this, the police came, they had to ask lots of questions, but were kind and respectful. There had to be a post mortem to establish the cause of death. I think i was in total shock and disbelief the first couple of weeks, somehow got through it, planned his funeral, started dealing with the “sadmin” etc. What i feel now is just overwhelming sadness, just flat, going through the motions of life as it were. Strangely, i dont seem to cry that much now, i just feel numb. If it wasnt for our two dogs, i wouldnt have a reason to get out of bed each morning. I know there are stages of "grief’, and i guess this is part of it. It’s been very helpful reading the posts on this forum. Friends and family are kind and only want to help me, but they can’t feel what I am feeling, so its been a comfort to read other people’s stories, and know im not alone. Thanks for reading x
Hi Sinead, so sorry to hear about your husband. I lost mine 17 months ago. I filled my first year with work went back quickly needed routine and structure. Sorted all admin. Decorated as ceiling hoists and equipment were removed within days. Family friends came often. A year on I cry more but behind closed doors as the fog has lifted. Family friends don’t come as often as I appear to be fine “ coping well” but we know on here that the grief never goes but each year is different it’s learning to live with it. Keep chatting on here we can support each other we know how you feel. Take care
So sorry, Sinead. I lost my partner 9 months ago today. The numbness will go in time, but it’s a hard journey. Take care of yourself.
So very sorry.
So many of us recognise the numbness.
Rose xx