Over the past few years I have lost myself, and as hard as I look I cant find me, the old me that was bubbling with fun and laughter, the me that was confident and full of life.
I have become a poor substitute of the guy I used to be, I have become scared and nervous of everything ,afraid to go out and afraid of staying in, and of being nervous in company, scared of saying the wrong thing and have become almost voiceless .
This morning I ventured out to a new group I saw advertised locally, I went in and just wanted to retrace my steps and run away, but a little voice said ‘hang on in there’ which i did, and i did meet some very nice people, and i did chat to a number of people and i will go again.
After many years caring for my partner, and never going out very far, I lost myself in the process and finding myself again is a search beyond anything I’ve ever encountered.
If I can find a semblance of my old self, I will be grateful.