Hi Lucy7
I’m so sorry this has happened to you too, but at least we can understand each others pain!
Sometimes during the day when I think of mum I take a big breath as all the sadness comes back of she’s not here anymore & what she went through 
now they’re both not here, you can’t tell anyone of these moments as they just don’t understand & so you carry on until the next sharp intake of breath, some days I just cannot believe they’re not here.
Our family song was you’ll never walk alone, we played it at both funerals & I’ll never be able to listen without crying
One day we’ll feel better 
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It’s a terrible pain and I can’t see it going away soon.
Mum had poor NHS care and I’m certain she’d still be here if she received proper care. It’s eating me up at the minute. We tried to get mum to complain to get things moving but she didn’t want to. We have to respect her wishes now.
I did draft an email to her GP who wasn’t very good - but I don’t want to upset my family. I believe an animal would have received better care at a vets. For one , mum had several fractures and dislocations due to her condition, they kept her waiting and ignored her cries for help and pain for months. Told her to take paracetamol.
Talking on here is channeling my anger about it all so thank you to you all x
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I’m truly sorry you are going through such pain. I also regret not getting my mum help sooner and I will pay the price for that for the rest of my life.
We did our best at the time though and we had the best of intentions, we need to remember that. We loved our mums and would have done anything for them, nothing can change that.
This is such a difficult time in our lives, it is hard and will continue to be fir a long time. Please keep posting any tone you need to talk or vent 
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Thank you Lucy for your kind words. We did do our best. And I did what mum wanted too.
I’m Going to try and focus on happy memories tomorrow. I need to stop moping around when my children are at school.
I hope today has been a better day for you
Hello Lucy,
Oh the oddness of life after loosing a much loved parent is something I didn’t expect. My much loved Dad died early December so it has been 23 weeks now. I count the hours too.
Tried to keep busy. But well so hard. Please look after yourself. Your important too.
Ian
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Look after yourself too, Ian
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Of course you did your best and your mum will know that, no doubt about it.
Definitely a good idea to focus on the happy times and there were plenty of them, so that should give us some comfort at least.
I’ve not had a bad day today thank you, probably one of the better ones to be honest. Let’s hope there will be more better days to come. Wishing you all the best 
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Take care of yourself, Lucy.
Here’s to positive memories
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Hi Ian, thank you for your message. So sorry to hear about the loss of you dad and that you are struggling. It is just so difficult isn’t it and a place we never thought we’d find ourselves in.
The days are strange, sometimes I feel it seems like an age since it happened and then other times I can’t believe how long it’s been. Think I’ve been walking round in a bit of a daze to be honest and trying to pretend it hasn’t happened.
Thank you, I will try to remember to look after myself and hope you can do the same, it is definitely what our parents would want us to do. Take care and remember we are here for you.
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It’s a truly awful feeling. I’m almost five months on from my dad dying and it feels more heartbreaking than it did those first few weeks. I’m just about to start my alevel exams next week and have been on autopilot to get through the end of year 13, it’s all kicking in a bit now.
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Hi Olivia, I’m so sorry for the loss of your dad and how it is making you feel.
5 months isn’t a long time, whatever anyone tells you, and it will take a much longer before you start to feel like yourself again. I agree that the more time goes on, the more painful it is. You will get there though one day.
It must be really difficult for you having to start your A Levels on top of everything else that you’re going through. I’m guessing there aren’t many people your age that understand either and that doesn’t help. I can’t imagine how hard it is for you at your age having to deal with your loss.
It is good that you’ve posted on here though as everyone on here has suffered a loss and can understand how you’re feeling. Please keep posting any time you need to talk
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Oh Olivia - so sorry to hear about your dad. I imagine it’s so much harder so young. I hope your exams go ok. We are all here to support each other so post any time you need. Five months is no time at all. And you’re right - it feels more heartbreaking than when it first happened. I hope school are looking out for you.
Look after yourself x
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