Lost my mum in November last year snd you would not believe the barrage of nasty things I’ve had to endure from my family and my partner and how my family were stealing items out of my mums house whilst the crash team were frantically fighting to save her life
I’m subject to horrendous verbal abuse from them and the partner I live with , I’m not at peace I can’t grief as you’d expect someone to, I’ve reached out from November to cruise but they say I’m on a waiting list
I contemplated ending my life as I’m on the edge as it is, I was detained under the MHA by the police overnight
I continuously cry and get shouted at by my partner and his issue is that I’m not having sex with him therefore he ignores me all day and when I’m crying so to cut a long story short I’m existing not living
I had a panic attack and he just stood watching me didn’t help me, said he didn’t know what he expected him to do so did nothing
Mums will hadn’t yet been read and the vultures are constantly making my life hell
I’ve no friends here I’ve lived here 3 years now due to covid lockdown etc I’ve not had an opportunity to mix and meet with anyone so I’m pretty much a prisoner in this house with no one to turn to, I have a constant pain in the middle of my chest and I’m consumed with grief and sadness wondering whether I’d be better living alone as I have no one anyway but I’ve no job and nowhere to go, I gave up everything to live with him and I’m beside myself with what to do
I hope you are ok. I thought my situation was bad but reading yours my heart goes out to you. I don’t know what to say as I am contemplating suicide myself. I don’t know what to say, I’m new here, I know messages are not much comfort as it’s real people and face to face support is what we need. The pandemic/lockdowns have made situations like ours unbearable. God bless you, I genuinely wish I could help.
Hello Brokensoul,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling so honestly. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum and and how difficult things have been for you since then. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
It sounds like you’re looking for support and I’m glad that you’ve been able to talk about how you’re feeling here. There are lots of other support options out there, and I would really encourage you to reach out and speak to someone about how you are feeling.
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https://www.samaritans.org/ are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
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https://giveusashout.org/ are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text SHOUT to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
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You can also find your local NHS urgent mental health helpline Where to get urgent help for mental health - NHS
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If you are at risk of harming yourself, please call 999 or contact your GP for an emergency appointment immediately.
Sue Ryder offers an online bereavement counselling service. This is a free service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. There’s more information about this service here: www.sueryder.org/counselling.
You may also find the information pages on our website helpful - if you have a spare few minutes, please do take a look: About bereavement and grief | Sue Ryder.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please do keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Susannah
HI Broken
you have such a sad story
what your family and partner have done buy stealing your moms things is terrible but unfortunatly does go on in othr families too but i do feel for you having to endure the way they treat you if he cared about he would help you not give you verbal abuse
what ever you do dont ever think of ending your life over these very sad people in your life you are better than them and one of them would be worth ending your life for try gettiing in touch with someone on the list susannah has put on the page they will help you
keep posting to let us all know you are ok and to let us know you have help
one day at a time in your moms memory and ignore those trying to hurt you
pat
Hi Ronnie
i am sure your wife would not like you to be thinking of ending you life
you can get a lot of support on here from people who are going through the same as you we have lost some one and feel lonely
i lost my husband 9 weeks ago we would have been married for 54yrs next month but i get comfort from thinking of what he would have wanted me to do and hed want me to be strong and i think your wife would want that too
my husband was ill for quite a long time with different ailments of copd and diabetis and other things when you have looked after them for so long thats all lifee has been so fid it hard when they go as theres no one to look after any more but now is the time you have to try and look afetr youself one day at a time and with baby steps
lookk after youself and take care keep posting your thoughts and read other posts they do help
pat
Hi Pat I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t know what to say. God bless you. X
thank you and take care of yourself
pat
if she was not far, you could meet to help …
things to work on
- it is not you
- break up with this man and never see him again
- can you stay with some friends?
- get a council flat?
- one day in the future get a job
hard to do these things while grieving … think of what your parent would want you to do. my dad would direct me in my head.
p.s. please know
abusive relationships never get better with time.
never.
he is a write-off and start working from there … real love rescues people.