So lonely

My husband had coped with dementia for his last three years and we were coping. It was very frustrating and difficult when he was depressed and angry but we muddled through. He was always quiet and didn’t talk very much but were both looking forward to a cruise holiday. Five days into the cruise we started going to visit the islands. On the second one he felt unwell upon getting back on board. Consequently later that evening suffered a heart attack and on route to the hospital the next day another heart attack. My lovely husband didn’t really regain consciousness after them and died the next day. I don’t know how l ever managed over the next few days. My son flew out and helped tremendously but I think we were on autopilot. The whole experience has been devastating. Now l just keep reliving all of it and the sadness I feel is overwhelming but I feel that I can’t talk to anyone without crying all the time.

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Sorry for your loss

It’s a difficult road to travel and no easy answers and no one shoe fits all - have to just try find best way to navigate it that’s best for you and do best you can

Stay strong

Yeh i was like like that at beginning. Tbh im 15 months in and still cry sometimes if people say things about my hubby… at beginning i was terrible. Cried all the time … it gets less as time goes by you know but the tears still come. The counsellors tell you its good to cry to get your pain out … so dont worry about it xx

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Thanks for your reply. It’s been 4 months now. Some days it seems like yesterday but other days I seem to have been on my own for ages. I know he never talked a lot but he was there. I miss so much the conversations that we just knew and all the in jokes that nobody else knows. He was my first boyfriend and I have known him for longer than anybody . We have had the funeral but with all the rain this year the cemetery is still drying out so I have to wait. Hug’s to you cos that’s what I miss too.

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I lost my husband in Jan this year and I cry every day. Its good to cry and people do understand.

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