I lost my dearest husband and friend a year ago. Still can’t stop crying and feeling sad. I miss him so much. I realise how precious those 50 years were though. He was chronically ill for the last few years but had also battled with TB, COPD, Pancreatitis in earlier years, so I was his carer too but he never complained, always played illness down. Then he got nephrotic syndrome and diabetes & had to battle these illnesses.
Keep replaying the last week of his life every day with what if and buts so wish I could have done more.
I have a small dog now which has helped me focus a bit & I have to get up to feed and walk him. My sons have been amazing and their partners so I feel their love!
We were together since 17 & 18 as teenagers.