I feel so tired all the time. I can’t be bothered with anything. I can’t even muster any motivation to do my craft projects or nook a holiday.
I feel desperately lonely but at the same time don’t want to talk to anyone.
I want to eat but can’t be bothered to cook.
I end up just sitting watching TV most of the day and eating rubbish junk food which then makes me feel guilty because I recently lost two stone with Simming World and was feeling so much better for a while there.
I desperately want my life back. The life I had before I lost my hubby.
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I have similar feelings to you but I am only 2 weeks in and not had the funeral yet. Junk food and Pinot keep me going but I know that has to end but just a week or two more.
Trying to get into some sort of routine but it is the quiet that really gets to me. I talk to my husband all the time and cry at the drop of a hat.
I hope you feel stronger soon x
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Aww. My thoughts are with you at this sad time. It’s 20 months since I lost my hubby and I’ve been up and down over that time.
We were married for 42 years and I am grateful for all the years we did have together.
Yet 63 still seems much too young to be a widow and I’ll never get used to not having him here with me.
Sending you hugs.
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I am with you, experiencing all these feelings. I too lost my husband just over two weeks ago. Funeral still to come which I am dreading. The tears come too easily. I know he wouldn’t want me to be like this but I loved him so much and miss him. A feeling that words just can’t describe.
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I am two weeks along as well and dreading the funeral next week. I am ugly crying so much that facial recognition doesn’t recognise me any more. I am a strong woman and just don’t understand where all these tears and emotions are coming from.
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Hope2 the tiredness is awful, I lost my David nearly 10 weeks ago and have been sleeping a couple of hours a night, this week I have been getting a few more hours sleep but it is never a normal restful sleep and I don’t think it will be for a long long time.
The thing we have to remember is what we have been through is a massive shock to our body and mind, it is a horrendous loss and nothing can compare to it. So we are going to be tired, more than tired we are exhausted, what we need to do is take it easy, eat when you can little and often, I have eaten ready meals more than I ever have in my whole life but they are not that bad and I am not going to start cooking from scratch so ready meals are the way forward. the house work gets done when I can, or it doesn’t get done but who cares as long as it is not turning into a stinking, hovel, we will get it done one day.
Last week I did have some nights when I slept a little better and I have been feeling actual hunger on some days. I guess nature will step in and help us out and maybe that is what’s happening to me.
I too loved doing my hobbies but have no interest just now, it may come back or it may not and we will may something different to do in the future. I have started going to my badminton club again which has helped me as the folks are lovely and doing some exercise helps get rid of some excess negative energy. I have also been on some walks alone and with family.
I am slowly fumbling my way back into life and I am having some days when I am not too bad, don’t get me wrong sometimes I am collapsing in a heap again and swimming in tears but it is happening less.
I have joined Jollie Dollies and made some friends who I meet for a coffee or lunch, every little thing helps to get us back in to life, which is what we need to do, it is hard but we cannot have our old lives back and need to rebuild around our grief.
Our partners and hubbies would want us to. X
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