Hi Kim5
I’m so sad for you too, it’s really the worst time of our lives, but so many on here going through the same as us. We will be heart broken for a long time to come but one day it will get a little easier for us. I’m glad that at least you have work, I wish I did, but I’m retired now. If you ever need to talk, please don’t hesitate to private message me. Take care and virtual hugs. Margarita
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Hi
Thank you same here if you need to talk. I was retired but returned part time does keep me going xx
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yes i loss my husband 1 june and was doing ok then had a quite week with nothing to doand the tears just poured out of no reason at all
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I am sending you hugs, as I know how you are feeling, it’s just been a year since I lost my husband of nearly 40 years to Prostate cancer. I feel lonely, and I don’t yet know what normal life is with COVID-19. I don’t yet know what to do with the rest my life. The pain we feel is undiscripable. All we can do is take it one day at a time.
It will get a little easier, honestly , never quite right but each day just more manageable. I find morning, and evening are the worst. But we bunker down, and battle on
Hope you find some kind of happiness take care. X
I find it harder on a night time, but this morning I could have sworn I heard him shouting me, probably just asleep and dreaming but it sort of freaked me out a bit and you don’t know whether it happened or it didn’t. Don’t get me wrong it was lovely to “hear” his voice but I just don’t know, it was just strange…
We all probably feel that at times. Granddaughter stopped last night, like her Nannie used to do ordering me about, When she shouts PETE, I hear Shell. Take care.
i have that to serval morningturn ovrt a feel him there and hear his voice
I know.
I’m the same my hubby died in February due to COVID 19 complications and I cry every night , it sounds silly but it’s comfort to know others are going through the same emotions . I wish all of us a brighter future to come xxxx
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i have found putting a photo of richard by his side of the bedand put a long pillow in the bed and it has realy help the bed dose not feel empt
I will try this hopefully it will help me as well xx
I hear what you’re all saying and can only sympathise with you.
Nighttimes are so hard, lying there thinking about every conversation you ever had, wondering if there was anything you could have done differently to change the outcome then falling into an exhausted, fitful sleep to wake up sobbing yet again. How I wish I could turn my brain off for just a few hours to get some rest.
The sleeping pills didn’t work so I gave up on them, meditation apps like calm seem to be helping a little as are natural remedies like sleepyhead oil and magnesium supplements. I’m managing a few hours at a time now.
Sending love and hugs to you all xx
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Thanks Barb,
Unfortunately I can’t have it as I’m chronically ill. It was a lovely thought
Oh dear. I’m sorry. You have so much on your plate. I pray for all of us.
I’m afraid this is the reality of quite a lot of grieving people. It was like riding the roller coaster the fun bit is over but you’re still strapped to the seat; it keep going on level ground until god knows when. Life goes on even if the thrills of it is over. Sometimes I want to jump off because… what’s the point without the love of my life?but I have to plod on for my teenage daughter.
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Hi Eileen. I know exactly how you feel it is almost the 3rd Anniversary for me and this year has been worst than the last. I gave just woken up with a terrible feeling of flatness and despair. I can’t imagine this lasting for much longer. On the surface in a few hours I will be my usual smiley self but underneath I feel empty. I am even seeing someone else and he is lovely but it is too late for me to make new memories. I think my lovely memories are preventing me from moving forward because I know I will never ever feel so contented again. If my Ron walked back into the room now
( and healthy again) then I would feel a mountain lift from my back. It all seems pointless. I never thought that grief could last so long.
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Hello Eileen - I’m so sorry you feel broken although not surprised. It’s almost 10 months for me and I’m always waken in the night wondering what is the point of going on. People say time heals - but the people saying it are not the ones like us that have lost their soulmate. Nobody who isn’t going through it understands. As you say there is no joy in life and I feel so lonely and lost all the time. I read on here that some people sleep a lot to block out the pain - but I can’t sleep and go about the days exhausted and in a stupor. Never thought life could be as difficult as this. Sending love to all us struggling without our beloved partners -
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Mine died in February this year and I’ve been awake last two nights as I couldn’t stop crying once our son who lives at home went to sleep . I put a smile on face and react normally when out of house or with family but inside I feel so lonely and empty, I’m sat here with a thumping headache as everything has become just too much to deal with . I miss him so much I’ve been having sessions via phone with a Cruse counsellor which have now stopped but I still can’t deal with it maybe I never will altogether. So I know what your going through . I hope you fine a way to deal with it , I’d give you advice but I’m still trying to find some myself
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