Just mown the lawn now sat in garden sobbing I hate sitting on my own in the garden my husband loved and took pride in, so wish he was sat here with me 
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@Marl i know how you feel. It’s been two years yesterday for me. It was a difficult day. I took my dog for a walk and was chatting to a man on the park. He asked what did and the tears just flowed. I know I need something to do to occupy myself and deal with all this anxiety that I have but I don’t know what to do do. I feel lost. I sat out in the garden yesterday and enjoyed a little sun. I fear I have turned into one of those lonely people wandering around the park with my dog chatting to anyone who can spare a m in mute. Is this what my life has become Sending you a hug x
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This is what i feel like. My rescue dog has abit of a fan club and loves everyone he meets on his walks. He has rescued me rather than the other way round. But at least it helps abit with the loneliness xx
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Hi Nel I am just like you I keep people talking more than I am sure they want to when I am out walking my dog in the park. I just want company and someone to talk to so very lonely x
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@Marl
I know what you mean. My husband loved our garden and it was always immaculate. These days it’s not so good, although the neighbours assure me it looks lovely and I am doing a great job.
We used to sit out a lot and I haven’t been able to as it feels painful knowing how much hard work he put into it and it how he can’t see it anymore.
Last year he brought a mini Wisteria tree in a pot, it has started budding and everytime I look at it the tears come.
Maybe one day we will be able to sit outside and look around us with pride and joy and not cry, I hope so.
Sending love xx
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I know how you feel @Marl , the garden was my husband’s pride and joy. That he wasn’t able to do it the last few years but he loved to sit outside and watch me. He has been gone two years now. His pride and joy was his pond and fish, it’s getting too much for me so I’ve decided to dismantle it. I sobbed for hours over it, thought I was letting him down. Then our son suggested doing a much smaller wildlife pond which I’ve now done. I hope he is happy with the change I’ve made, I’m sure he is. I like to think he is in the garden still with me.
It doesn’t take much to cry these days, sat looking through his memory box last night that did it too x
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