Hi, I meant to say thank you to Scamp1 for your kind reply. I agree with your post, although the loss of a loved one never goes away, the despair and endless crying days to gradually decrease.
Warmest wishes to everyone
Thanks keswick & no, the loss of a loved one never does go away. The main problem with loving someone, the loss that everyone has to faceā¹ļø.
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My husband passed away April 2025. Reading your messages helps me gain insight about how to carry on without my partner and come to terms with his physical absence. I find his absence sometimes an unbearable struggle. I decided to get a dog in January 2026 for companionship and to get me out of the house, not to mention to try and cope. Walking has been great, though this was something my husband did. He walked every day. The mixed emotions of talking with my husband everyday, which I find natural and necessary, and knowing how much I miss walking with him, are at times difficult to reconcile. His absence is very present when walking with my dog, if that makes sense. Work and family (his children and mine) give some normality, though it is difficult to discuss the internal struggle and phases of grief with his or my children (all adults). Do you have days when you do not want to be among people and want to withdraw? I oscillate between this feeling and finding comfort in the company of family and going to work. I often find an internal resistance to do things and I have to force myself to get things done. At times I just want to stop and make time stand still so I donāt have to do anything or be anywhere for just a short while. I embrace life, and at the same time I feel I live between two worlds. The physical world, and another world that I believe exists, though it is beyond my understanding.
āGrieving is not better, just hidingā is absolutely rightā¦ We can have close people around to give us a company in this loneliness, to give up a support to keep going on, to put together broken pieces, so we can be functional again, to put a smile on our faces and make us laugh sometimes that feels good, but the rest stays the sameā¦ If people could see a picture of our souls full of bleeding wounds and deep scars, they would understandā¦ It has been 20 months now and Iāve lost everythingā¦ Iāll never forget how I saw my beloved house for the last time from a carā¦ The only good thing that made it a little bearable was the fact I wasnāt safe there anymoreā¦ I donāt wish it to anybody who is grieving to death,ā¦ having all my most beloved husbandās family against me, because of money that is the worst evil of this worldā¦ Hopefully we can find some peace as time goes byā¦