Hi.
I haven’t really been on here, so am still new to this.
I lost my Dad in Oct 2018 cancer
My brother in law July 2019 sepsis
Mum in March 2020 to Covid
12 friends also in 2020 to different things.
A best friend last May to cancer
And my best friend in the world
has been living with terminal secondary breast cancer in the lung for 2 years.
Then today , i heard that a LONG TIME friends Mum i have been friends with since we were 8, (55 now), has bowel cancer & blood clots in her lung.
I am devastated by this news, & it is making me want my Mum & Dad even more than before.
I just want to put my arms around them & hug them, telling them how much i love & miss them EVERY single day. I still have their numbers in my phone & wish Heaven had a phoneline so i coud hear their voices. I feel SO SO alone & feel i have no-one to talk to as my friends either have kids, or are going through their own things, so i dont want to burden them. I just miss them all so much & some days i just want to be with them x
My heart goes out to each & every one of you that is going through tough times of grief. X
That is so much grief to cope with, @Alfies-mum51 
I’m sorry you’re feeling so alone. The community is always here for you - I’m giving your thread a gentle bump so that you can get some support.
Take care
Seaneen
i come on here on occasion to see if there is someone i can help. i was on here for years after parental loss.
mine was a hard case - only child losing loving doting parents.
but i survived it. it has been no fun. losses of other kinds came as a result.
8 years later, things have smoothed out. i still miss them everyday. i have learned to live with it. all losses come down to surviving it or going with them. most people learn to survive and miraculously, even go on to brighter better days.
an introvert, i joined lots of social clubs. made new friends. other things to move myself forward in life. takes time and patience. sitting through terrible times. but it is either that or …
parental loss is also staggering. your world is cut from underneath you. then you have the dreaded task, for some, of making a new world. but what else can one do?
plod along, get throught sad times, and find some things you like. 
Berit , Thankyou so much for your reply. I am very gradually moving forward, with help from my amazing friend & a support group on facebook that i found.
It is terribly difficult when you lose one parent, let alone both in a short time.
Sending you hugs x
Seaneen Thankyou so much. That means such a lot. I have days where i want to go out & have fun etc with hubby or friends, but struggling with terrible anxiety, fibromyalgia & arthritis at very bottom of my spine, so some days i just canot get dressed.
I cannot tell you what it means having support from Sue Ryder. I had text messages after losing Dad to cancer after 8 weeks of being told it was terminal, & reading those really helped. But then i lost my brother in law to sepsis, and then Mum VERY VERY suddenly & totally unexpectedly, which blew my world apart. I still kep thinking she is just on holiday & will come home one day, but my heart knows she wont. I miss her terribly every single day as we spoke every day at 9pm, which is a time i still struggle with. I know it sounds silly but i just miss my phone ringing & seeing her come up.
Thankyou for the bump.
& thankyou for your support & care.
Sending big warm hugs xx 