Still not real

I know Taff and feel for you. I am truly heartbroken but I think my partner doesn’t get it. Maybe your husband is showing no emotion to stay strong for you….I don’t know though. I e just put my sons mobile on to charge up, see if I can think of any more combinations, doubt it. Why the police won’t listen to me I have no idea. I hope you are able to get a walk in at somepoint today. I can’t even think ahead I will never see me son again and my heart truly goes out to you, big hug xx

Thank you and really well done in driving such a big achievement when we do something others take for granted. Hope your day can improve even a tiny bit helps. Woke up this morning heart pounding, panic again. Not even sure if EE can help but worth a try. Got to pluck the courage up to ring them🤷‍♀️ take care xx

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He told the charity worker the other day he’s coping so cannot understand how I am like this, I suspect like Evan he has ASD traits, when I did my cousins funeral I had loads of comments that I had no one there for me as he didn’t even consider coming with me. I’ve never had emotional support from him so im used to just keeping plodding on, on my own hiding how i feel, but now i cannot

Oh dear Taff, just wish I could help you more. Is it worth you speaking to your GP, I’m really not sure, but please keep messaging on here and say how you feel. I’m probably not much help saying any of this. Have you got a close friend you can confide in. My partner says why are you crying again I just say I can’t help it but he does listen in his own way. Keeping it bottled up is not healthy either. Keep messaging as this site is my lifeline where people really do understand what we are going through. Take care, minute by minute is all we can do xx

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Taff I get exactly what you’re saying because in my relationship I’m you and my wife is your husband, you will get out soon I know you will plus them pennies won’t hide themselves.

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Hi MJG - I hope your son’s inquest went as well as it could, and that you have found some peace. We still don’t have a date for an inquest after 7 months, and are hoping it will be given us soon.

i feel the same anger towards the crisis mental health team too in my opinion they are not fit for purpose. My daughter died 8 weeks ago from possibly drinking too much vodka we have got to wait for the inquest in february. The crisis team diagnosed Jodie with PMDD in February and pretty much left her to it. When Jodie went through a PMDD episode she would drink for 5 days constant then once she came out of the episode she would be fine. it would take me to long to write about the failings in the sysyem i begged for their help numerous times telling them my fear that my daughter would die if they didnt help No help came … im so so sad