This morning I was sat in the garden drinking my cuppa and a formation of geese went over, it overwhelmed me and I could not stop crying for a long time. Last year me and my David had been watching 100s of geese coming in from Canada and Alaska to stay here for the winter, last year it was lovely to see…this year it is lonely and too sad.
I think one day I will be able to watch and listen to them honking without weeping but for now it is too painful. X
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Hi @penny6 ,
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts, but I just wanted to say thank you for so bravely sharing this with us. I can imagine how beautiful yet overwhelming this was. Keep reaching out,
Alex
I’ve just emptied my hubby’s bedside drawers,got rid of socks and underwear(gave son his retirement watch and cufflinks),that has set me off,then made the mistake of looking in his wardrobe,that set me off,cannot do his wardrobe at the minute.
After 10 months, I still haven’t moved anything of N’s.
It’s still his home, and I’m not ready to change anything…
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Well I have been into his things. I have been using them.
I enjoy using his things. They re part of him. When using his clippers think if him.
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I feel the same I keep smelling his cloths I’m so sad
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When I feel really low, I spray his aftershave on the pillow 
Good idea thank you
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It’s awful feeling like this,in our heads we know they aren’t coming back,but our hearts won’t let us move on,we want to believe they will walk through the door.
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Our son has a couple of his t shirts,plus some pj bottoms,which he wears.
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I’m trying to pack for a holiday that N should have taken last September…he was too poorly to go and the company agreed to roll it over for me to go instead.
This is by far the hardest thing I’ve done so far…
I’m okay one minute, and in bits the next. It’s taken seven days to pack, sort out dive kit, cameras, papers…
It feels like a one man expedition rather than a fun holiday!
Do it in memory of the person you lost.Prove to yourself you can do this.Have a lovely time as best you can.
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