Going through the grief process. My brother died last year if pancreatic cancer at only 44. I am one year older than him. Both parents have passed on - my mum when I was twenty and my Dad when I was in my early forties. I am 47 now and gave my own family but feel the loss of all my immediate original family.
My brother’s death was shocking as it was only six months from diagnosis that he died. I am the executor of the will which I am finding hard to do. We are selling his house and it’s been a tough process. I feel a bit overwhelmed with it all sometimes. The executor role feels like the grief is continuing and somehow I am failing him as the house is not sold yet but close to selling. Feel like all the practicalities are impacting on my own life and feeling guilty for not doing enough although have been working full time and have my own children.
Hi @Isy56,
I can see you’re new to the community, so I wanted to give your thread a gentle bump. I’m sorry for the loss of your brother.
You are not alone. We have many members who have experienced the loss of a sibling and will understand some of what you’re going through. You can read conversations our members have shared on our Losing a sibling category page.
You may also find it helpful to read our Losing a sibling page on our website. It talks you through some of what you might be feeling, and how to cope.
@Nedh shared this link on another thread, which might be helpful too. The Loss Foundation is for anyone who has lost a loved one to cancer. They have lots of different kinds of support, like 1 - 1 peer support, in-person groups, retreats and grief support workshops.
I hope you find the community to be a support to you, too. Take good care 
I know what you mean about the executor role drawing it out. I’m finding this with being the executor of my partner’s will.
My brother died in 2017 and there are times when it still feels like yesterday.
Sending hugs.
Thanks for your message. Just finding the whole role of the executor stressful and drawn out. I guess it’s just the legal system. Am hoping to have done sort of closure once the house sells - at least I’ll feel like I’ve achieved something then and my nephews will get the money when they are older.
It is a tedious process. Fingers crossed it is resolved for you soon.
Hi just wanted to reach out and say sorry for you loss, i lost my brother last year he was 7 years younger than me 45, no age. I’d lost my parents too the year before so it’s still really hard for me moving on.
I think you are doing your brother proud and he would be proud too, there will be days where you feel emotionally drained but that’s ok, the fact your doing all this is enough so don’t beat yourself up.
Keep going you will get there however long it takes
Take care
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Thanks for reaching out - I appreciate the kind words. Sorry for your loss as well. Hope you’re doing okay. Yep, am determined to sort everything out and hopefully get some closure. Just want to make the most of my life now and do what I can.