I don’t deal with emotions very well, and I’ve never lost anybody before I struggle to talk to people around me because I don’t want them to be upset as they’re also going through the same thing as I am and I want to be just as strong for them. My grandad is dying he’s on palliative care and I think I’m grieving before he’s even gone but he’s not really himself now and knowing he’s only got a few weeks or a month to live but not knowing exactly when is feeling quite hard. I feel myself getting angry at horrible people that get to live and he doesn’t. And I can’t seem to keep that anger in like I would’ve been able to do in the past when people are horrible. I’m able to keep a lot of my anger in and become about it but at the minute I just seem to be lashing back at them and giving them kind of what they want, but I don’t mean to. I just really can’t explain how I’m feeling or it’s messing with my head and I’m really not enjoying it and this is before he’s even died so when he actually dies, I actually don’t want to know what that’s gonna do to me.
has anybody got any advice on how they dealt with anger or being upset during this time and helplines or anything that are free that I can maybe talk to?