Struggling to cope with losing my dad

18 months on from losing my dad to cancer, I still struggle with listening to music without getting emotional.
I feel myself getting emotional about the little things in life that are out of my control.
I think my problem is that I still haven’t dealt with my last memories of my dad in the hospital for 4 days dying.
During this time I signed a DNR and I think this is what I struggle with the most.
Did I give up on him ??

Dear Shana
Just a quick note of support…to say I hope you are able to get some peace of mind about your Dad’s last days. Have you been able to talk about the events with anyone able to help? It sounds as though you had a really challenging time when your Dad passed, with a difficult decision to make regarding the DNR.
Do you have much support?
Best wishes