My husband died in November last year after a long battle with Cancer, although his death was expected at some point, it came quicker than anyone of us was prepared for.
I am feeling very frightened, vulnerable, lonely and very low. On top of feeling as I do there are also the other problems to cope with that are arising after his death.
I worked for my husband and on his death the business folded, I lost my job and income also. I am slowly getting there but feel guilty that I am not working, I am trying to get a job and have applied for several but its difficult as one day I feel I can face anything and the next I cant and just want to disappear.
I am also struggling to sort through my husbands affairs as a wall seems to have developed between my stepson and myself. I have tried to think about his children all through the period following my husbands death and I feel as though I am not coping well at all.
My step children are in their early twenties, it was my husbands wish that his son take over the family business on his death but he has been unable to do that as the business was classed as insolvent. So my step son decided to start up a new business in his own name, I had no access to my husbands accounts or business as his son didnt think I needed access and questioned everything I wanted to know.
I feel like im treading on egg shells around him and I also feel very intimated by him because of his size and attitude towards me.
It is hard for me to face each day at the moment without him being the way that he is.
Today he has contacted me as he couldnt gain access to his dads email account, he knew I had changed the password and said i had no rights to do that.
I told him i had to as i needed to sort his dads affairs out and felt that he was shuting me out. He told me he needed access asap so I gave him the password as I have nothing to hide and again because I felt I had to, to stop hard feelings.
Everything is such a mess, my husband made no will and I have tried to keep things
amicable but I feel I cant do right for doing wrong and it is just making me feel worse.