My dad passed away end of July in his sleep, we were told we had months but that quickly changed to days.
As the eldest it was me that confirmed he had passed and dealt with the aftermath.
His passing has clearly hit the whole family but I am struggling to grieve, I don’t know if it’s because I’m the eldest I have to be seen as looking after the family and can’t show any emotions.
It’s also little things like we all got memory bears made out of his favourite clothes and my siblings and mum have theirs out on display, but mine is still in it’s bag, just placed in my wardrobe.
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and for opening up about how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about your dad and what you have had to deal with since he died. It sounds like you’ve carried a lot.
Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through - I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
It’s a long slow process, my Dad died just under 2 years ago and I still feel that it’s very raw at times. We also have memory bears, mine is sat on Dad’s old chair in the living room but I can barely look at photographs without crying. There is no right and wrong way to get through this, just the way that works for you. I had some bereavement counselling via Sue Ryder and that was a big help - or a space like this. Just say what’s in your head, every one on here will understand.