Struggling with death of father

Losing a parent
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Hello everyone,

My dad suddenly passed away from a stroke last week. He was 88.

I lived at home with him all of my life, whixh now means that I am living on my own.

I have cried so much. It is worse in the mornings when I wake up and it all hits me.

I have a brother about 20 minutes away and half-siblings. I also have an uncle in Scotland, but he isn’t well.

I feel so incredibly lonely. People have stopped by but when they leave I get so upset.

I am not working at the moment and I don’t have a partner like the rest of my family members do. I don’t think that they really understand how much I am struggling to be by myself.

I don’t drive and this has made me feel even more isolated.

I feel like I will never get through this and I know Christmas is around the corner, I will probably be alone for that.

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Hi
I’m so sorry to hear about you dad, I lost my dad 6 weeks ago too, he was 90 and it’s the worst feeling ever! I think people think once the funeral is over things get better but that’s not the case! Can you get some sort of counselling? Here to chat anytime :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Hello both, I lost my Dad 5 weeks ago. Mum passed Dec 2022. It is the loneliest feeling isn’t it. I have a partner, child and friends but I’m still struggling. Feels like the joy has been sucked out of my life. I know I won’t feel like this forever (hopefully) but I feel flat and quite often numb. I took today off work as just couldn’t face anybody. I wish I had some wisdom to share but maybe knowing other people feel as you do may help. You are not alone…. x

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Yeah I have good support but like you say still very lonely :smiling_face_with_tear: do you get any physical symptoms? I get headaches all the time which is causing me more anxiety, viscous circle :woozy_face:

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I don’t sleep very well now and I feel less energetic. My skin looks more sallow. I seem to get more coughs. My sister gets headaches. The body keeps the score ! I hope your headaches improve. It’s so much to deal with isn’t it… x

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My deepest synpathies. I lived with my dad and I don’t have a partner either, so I know how empty and scary it is. :broken_heart::heart: The only advice that works at this point is to try divide the day into small parts and just concentrate on getting through one part at a time. I called helplines pretty much every day the first weeks. Maybe your GP can help you find someone to talk to, as well. Or the local church or hospice (I went to see a priest a few times). Just to have that support on a regular basis means a lot. Sending hugs and thoughts of strength. :people_hugging:

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Hi
So sorry to hear about your dad, it’s so hard isn’t it .
I lost my dad on September 5th this year , I lost my mum Nov 2022 , it’s her two year anniversary next week, and I lost my baby sister 6 years ago, I’m feeling so overwhelmed and anxious with grief .