lost my mum to Pancreatic Cancer in May… my mind keeps showing me horrific images of the decay process… tormenting me… if not is that… its replaying the last 10 days with her losing her battle in hospital… esp the last 2 hours of the active death… where i held the woman who brought me into this world… as she left it… and if not that… the sickening… gut wrenching… soul ripping pain of losing your mum… if not that… angry and grieving the future lost with her… and her grandson… and other grandkids… how do u process a loss of having someone for 43 years… then they are gone… im not familiar with grief in general… but im sure some of this is ptsd from the whole situation…
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Hello @welshchicken81,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. These thoughts sound really scary and upsetting for you.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you might find these self-care tips for PTSD from Mind helpful in managing some of the images and flashbacks you’re having.
It may be a good idea to have a chat with your GP too and see what support they can offer you - I know many of our members have found counselling to be helpful.
Please do keep reaching out - you are not alone.
Take care,
Seaneen
thank you… i do have prn medications… on top of my mental health tablets… for ongoing depression and anxiety… and can still hold down my 48hr a week night carer job… and pin together some semblance of family life, admist the usual daily stresses… as im in survival mode… but this grief is overwhelming… i am about to to call… and rebook in to the occy health worker at gp again… thank you for the reply xx
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