I lost my nan a few months ago to Cancer and im finding it hard. She was my favourite and i loved her greatly, shes had always been there for me. I used to go to her house overnight at weekends and go on holiday in school holidays, which i have fond memories of when i got older we spoke on the phone & i saw her every few months. She’d been ill for a few years but always managed well and still was adamant to do thing’s herself. So when her illness got really bad and she went into hospice, it was a proper shock to see her like that. She still had her independence right up unto a few days before but seeing her helpless as really stuck with me. I was with her when she passed, holding her hand comforting her but every time i try to remember her i dont see her how she was before, i just see her how she died. She always been one of main support since being a kid, how do i get through this without her support.
Hi @Mitch3,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Naoise
Hi Mitch, I don’t know if this message will be supportive, or perhaps just let you know that you aren’t alone. I lost my Nan earlier in the year. It was quite a shock, but was there when she passed and in her last few days - so I understand the angle of remembering your loved one when they’re ill, rather than all the amazing times you’ve had together. One of the things I find that helps (sometimes, certainly not all the time) is thinking about what my Nan has left with me. Her strength, her love - and oh my word, she LOVED everyone. Do you have anything in particular that your Nan has left, or what her most amazing trait was? Sometimes just talking can help - equally so, no pressure to respond at all.
Hi, Thank you for your message.
Yeah my nan was the most caring person i know, really down to earth, put others before herself. Before she died i was struggling with life and was spiraling, she picked me (so to speak) and through her love and support, she got through to me and ill always have that part of her with me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Ive just lost my nan 3 weeks ago to a short illness with pneumonia in hospital . Her death has come as a shock to all, especially with it being 5 months after the death of her sister who also died in hospital.
I’m traumatised of what I saw at the hospital during her final moments and now I’m struggling everyday to come to terms with her death.
I feel your pain. Thinking of you and your family during this time.
Thank you for your message. So sorry to hear about your Nana so soon after your Aunty. Its been 4 months since my Nan passed and how she was before end still comes back to me most days. Only thing that sometimes help is trying to replace her face with her pulling a silly face or shaking her head while she tutts. I wish my grandad was still alive, so he could tell me about how what she was like in her teens but sadly he died before i was born.