Having a terrible evening and ive been quite strong the past few. Feel like I am going backwards and losing my mind. My mum passed away 3 weeks ago and tonight I am really really struggling with missing and longing her to come back. This usually only happens in the morning when I first wake up and its totured me all day today. Weve not even had the funeral yet as she passed on christmas day so that is all delayed.
It all happened so fast and my brain keeps throwing up random memories of when mum was okay which isnt that long ago.
It all feels so unnatural to lose her at 35. And I miss hugging her, talking to her, making me laugh so much tonight. I cant shake it. I wish my brain and my heart could rest