Hi, First time post, sorry maybe long winded.
I have suffered anxiety issues all my life and lived at home with Mum for support. Mum also suffered with anxiety and I helped her likewise. Mum also had physical health problems, mainly the C.O.P.D. Eventually Mum couldn’t do as much as she used to and I began to do more and more.
In December 2015, Mum began to get confused talking about stuff I had done the previous day as if I was someone else. This would maybe last a few days and then she would be normal again for a while. Eventually a CPN got involved and she thought it was Delirium due to poor health.
I began to struggle with my mental health as Mum was getting worse. The CPN recommended Mum to go into respite but before that could happen, Mum became ill and had to go into hospital. This was now in December 2016. She improved and I was told she was medically fit for discharge. I was told to refuse her back home as I wasn’t coping with Mum’s personal needs. Unfortunately while waiting for a place for Mum to go she was bed bound and kept getting one chest infection after another.
Towards the end of December she was moved into a Nursing Home where they thought she wouldn’t make Christmas. She did and a month later I thought she was going to make it. But again she was stuck in bed and was getting infections. Eventually on the 15th February 2017 she died of pneumonia.
I have continued to live in the house that me and Mum built up together, which is nice but everything reminds me of what I have lost, My Mum, Best Friend and my Support.
I know it has only been 2 months since she died and over 4 months since I’ve been living on my own. Because of my anxieties I find it difficult to make friends or even to get out as I get so scared. I’m crying most days as I get so lonely.
Sorry for long post, just thought you should have some background information.