Hello,
I lost my mom a month ago tomorrow. I was her main carer for over three years as she deteriorated with COPD. I’m not coping, I work in palliative care myself and she was under my team so when I go back I’m going to be flooded with the memories of them coming into her. I’m trying to continue on but I just feel like I should be doing better. Everything feels heavy and foggy currently. I have no motivation. I have an 11 year old who I am trying to protect and support too and a puppy and cats. I recently had a relationship breakdown too and they’ve come back on the scene which is the only support I feel I have and that’s shrouded In negativity.
I tried to reach out to a helpline but they just gave me a link to book a session for a months time
I feel like I want to just snap out of this but I can’t. I feel so lazy and unmotivated. I finished my masters degree recently and have my graduation in a few weeks and I’m not excited. Not much feels exciting currently. I don’t know if this is normal or if in just being dramatic but I really feel like I’m not ok. I just wanted to get either reassurance others feel this way or something. I’m not sure. Well done if you got this far. Oh also I’m only 31 my mom was 56.
Hi
I lost both parents in the last 12 month my dad sept 24 and mum this August!
I work for the NHS and have been off work since mum died. I cannot face going back to work life feels utterly dreadful!
Started on antidepressants for anxiety too
You are completely normal and need to be kind to yourself one step at a time! X
Hello @Paigesbs
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. I know how hard it is. It is very early days for you and it sounds like you have a busy life. I lost my mum four months ago and the things you describe feeling I remember feeling and still do sometimes. I remember feeling very unmotivated and so exhausted. I found no joy in anything and nothing seemed to matter. I know it sounds like a cliche but the way I managed was just to take one minute/hour/day at a time, go with how I was feeling at any given time and try to remember to be kind to myself. I hope you find comfort from posting and support from others who understand. Sometimes I just find just reading other people’s posts helps me to know what I’m feeling is ok. I returned to a very busy job probably too soon but I am managing with the support of my team. Could your manager arrange for you to work on a different unit (if that’s what you want), even on a temporary basis.
Take care of yourself the best you can and I hope you know that people here understand and will listen x