I’m new to this but thought I’d reach out. I lost my father last August he was my rock and last remaining parent. I’m struggling more this year than last. I almost feel like I’m on auto pilot. Yesterday was the first time I cried since his funeral to which I feel guilty for. Prior to the tears yesterday I have been so angry with every little aspect of life. The aniexty has been intense at times. What To do!
So sorry for your loss. I lost my mum in July this year and my niece passed 3 weeks ago. Yesterday was the second time I have cried. My last two years have been the toughest test ever thrown at me with various things and I now live alone. I feel your anger, unanswered questions, guilt etc it a whole ship full of emotions. Please dont feel guilty about not crying, it’s not wrong. Anxiety is horrible makes you question everything. I am here if you want to talk.