Hi everyone
I really have no idea what im writing or what to even say right now. I lost my beautiful mum on 5th December only 4 days ago she was only 68 years old. Very sudden and
Im very traumatised from this as she died in my arms on the street. I thought she was having a panic attack and she couldnt breath properly and calling 999 didnt help as they said they coudnt send an ambulance for a panic attack and to contact 111 …she quickly got worse …and I just starting to scream and shout for someone to help me. I called 2 more times for an ambulance 20 minutes ans the police arrived first …cpr didnt work and ambulance arrived they worked on her for 30 minutes . I knew she was gone when i was trying to hold her up to not let her fall. I havent been able to go in my car since as it was as soon as i picked her up from town she started to panic in my car… and i keep getting flashbacks of her just lying there and me being unable to help her. Im in complete shock and i cant get my head around it that she is just gone and wont be coming back. I keep going to call her or saying things like ill need to tell my mum that. I dont have many other family members at all it was just me and my mum against the world …and now I just dont know what to do. I just needed to write this to just get it out. I just have no clue what to do now. We had so much planned for christmas and stuff during this time as we both loved christmas and now i dont want to even think about it but i have a wee girl who is only 4 and i need to be strong for her but i dont know i can. My mum had started to buy presents for everyone and i wanted to wrap them and put them under the tree if the other family members wanted me to do that. I dont feel like me anymore 
So sorry to read your story it must have been so traumatizing for you. I know how it feels I lost my mum last August 2023. Like you it was just me and mum. It’s horrible to face Christmas alone, not a great time for single people. Sending you hugs, one bit of advice I will give you is take 1 day at a time. If posting on here helps then feel free to do so. What ever helps you in this really bad time.
Sending you hugs Dawn.
There are no words. I feel your pain having lost my mum in late July. The pain of loss horrendous. You’re still in shock.
Your little girl will give you the strength to do what you need to. Don’t put pressure on yourself.
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my wonderful mum almost 3 weeks ago.
Christmas is going to be hard, but we are trying to keep it as my mum would want for my 6 year old niece, whose birthday is also on Christmas Eve.
The presents mum brought will still be wrapped and signed from Nanny. We are still putting cards up for her she is defo still going to enjoy Christmas with us.
I hope we all find the strength to enjoy Christmas for the sake of our beloved mums
I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine how scary that was and how helpless you must have felt.
I lost my mum recently and we have the funeral tomorrow. I am dreading it. I was so close to my mum and struggle to see a life without her. I too say things like ‘I will tell mum this’ or even go to call her sometimes. It breaks my heart that I cannot have any more time with her.
I feel like nobody around me understands and has been through this.
I sometimes laugh when I think of something she would have said to me as a joke. That’s helps sometimes.
Look after yourself
Hi sorry for your loss I totally understand how you feel I lost my mam two years this month, I went to see her and found her dead on the settee I actually thought she was sleeping, it is totally traumatising when it’s so unexpected, you won’t be able to get your head around it for a long time I still can’t now, but try to be kind to yourself you’ve been through a traumatic experience and nothing will make sense yet, you have your little girl who will 100% get you through this without you even realising as she is your purpose for keeping going. Take care and I’m always here to chat too x