Suicide

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Long story short my ex partner who was on remand in prison for what he put me and my children through(one is his) he was on remand from early December last year and we were set for trial next month as he pleaded not guilty to 5/6 charges… however Wednesday I had police knock my door telling me he had taken his own life and was found that morning in his cell. I was handed coroners details and crime reference number. It has come apparent it’s being left to me to deal with his death. I’m absolutely heartbroken even tho he hurt me I can’t stop crying I can’t eat I can’t sleep I can’t function very well and I don’t know how to get past this. He promised me no matter how bad things got he would never leave his son behind & he’s done just that :sob: I’m soo hurt my heart physically hurts. I have guilt as I sent him to prison has anyone else been through this? I have to hear details of his death tomorrow and I don’t think I’m ready​:sob::broken_heart:

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Hello @ChloeRx,

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m sorry to hear about your ex-partner - it sounds like a very difficult situation. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.

  • Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
  • Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.

You might want to contact SOBS (Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide) and you can find out more on their website at https://uksobs.com/.

You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or support services in your local area.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,

Naoise