Hello. My life has changed forever today, my husband took his own life. I am heartbroken and have no anger but a deep loss of a wasted life. He struggled with alchohol addiction for 18 years and stood by him. I feel like i hv let him down and why should i live my life now hes gone. Im sat in bed looking for anyone who will reply as im at a loss. I dont know what happens, the police came and went ? Its beenn8 hrs and im alone in bed… 
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@Lizzie11 dear lizzie i am so very sorry for your loss. You must still be in a state of shock. Do you have any family that could be with you for a few days. I think feeling like you let him down is a part of the grief. I’m sure he would want you to live your life. Take it one minute at a time. Your head is going to be all over the place. Just know you are not alone and there are people on here who understand and care. Take care sending hugs x
I am so very sorry for your loss. Do you have family who could stay with you? I hope you find support on this site. Hugs
I am so sorry for your loss. I know you are in so much shock and emotional pain. Should i have done this, or why didn’t i do that . trying to go over that event over and over again in your mind. Trust me, I’ve been there !
Please try and go to your family or a friend, even a neighbour, or someone to seek help. And please go for a walk to let yourself breathe with fresh air.
There is help online or go to your doctor for help.
I beg you to please get out of bed and eat something. I know what it is like to lose the love of your life. I lost my husband a few months ago. But your husband has gone to Christ, where there is no more pain or suffering, but love. And he is watching over you. Your husband would want you to look after yourself. Please don’t suffer alone , this is a big trauma for you. Find help. Look after number one,that’s you.
Love and huggies
God bless you x
@Lizzie11
I am truly sorry for your loss. I think only people who have experienced a husband/wife/partner passing knows the pain - grief it causes and the multiple emotions and questions we bombard ourselves with each day. It’s only been 3 weeks for me but so I can’t tell you it gets better but I have found this site just to read others comments are helpful. Always here if you want to talk
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