10 weeks ago, I was sat next to Andy in the hospital, watching the Wimbledon men’s final on his phone in the cafe. I left him at 6.30 so he could settle down to watch the preamble before the Euro football final as he loved that, not knowing that would be the last time I saw him, heard his voice or felt his arms around me! His last text to me was at 10.08, the Crash call went out at 11pm but it was already too late, he couldn’t be resuscitated!
10 weeks ago, my world ended and now I’m just existing! Another Sunday
Hiya all its 15 weeks today for me, it doesnt seem possible it can be that long, I suppose in some ways I am a little better then I was. But in other ways its worst now then it was back then the lonilness the empty house the ache for a hug. To hear him say I love you which we did every day without fail.
Sundays are the hardest days to get through. I always have a bad headache and feel really stressed. I try to think this is not what he would want and some times I will admit I feel ok. But then it hits again and I find myself in tears. Ty again Rose for the candle hugs for us all Jo xxx
Yes and now 6 mths have gone since he passed on march 24th sunday.
Im lost,everything i try to do ends in tears,im crying at almost everything i watch,ive started lying in bed where im usually up ,and just on me phone alot,eating rubbish but thats bin happening since he left me,i did try to get out last weekend but the battery was down on me car had to get someone out,im not goin out so it was flat,i have run it round the shop,but it was awful i felt like i was some Alien i felt stared at,
Ive tried today i got up early changed bed and did washing,and now an going get in shower,and order me shopping after for the next week ahead,grief is so lonely,the mind just wont switch off especially at night,why does it have to happen to us all
Im thinking of everyone whos going through this,i know am not the only one,but grief is so lonely and my depression feels like im alone,ive hardly got up today,except for a hot drink and snacks,its bin a bad day.
Sorry to hear you’ve been having such bad days, and I understand how lonely grief is. We’re all here because of the loss of someone incredibly special, that bit we can share but each journey of grief is utterly unique so we travel that path by ourselves. Please try to look after yourself a little each day, maybe setting very small goals every few days may help xx
joy.
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