Lovely hearing from u . I have to admit I feel lost like a feeling of not belonging in a big wide world.
It’s like a feeling that life is partly drained and taken away from us. U sound so like me. I hate evenings the most so empty and dead. It is so so very hard to feel anything but I guess if we don’t try to move forward we will never move from where we r now. The pain hopefully will lesson little over time and I say somehow we have to build our whole life gain.
Suddenly we feel unloved, unwanted we do not have a place of warmth and comfort but hey let’s do at least two positive things each day
And update each other if we accomplish this, one step at a time I say Lovely knowing that there is someone similar to me, well, not lovely we r both in a painful place but yes let’s do that 2 positive things a day 
Aww thats a really lovely idea,sign me up!Everything you have described is exactly how i feel-i don’t know how to live without my beloved Stu by my side but i feel like i need to live life for the both of us now,I really want to make him proud(&shock him with some of the more extreme things on my bucket list for him!)Evenings &weekends are always the worst times for me-i live alone with my 2 cats so thats when i feel so lonely &isolated from the rest of the world xx
U sound so very similar to me. I now alone with 4 cats 
look forward to text u tomorrow 
Bless ya!Chat to you tomorrow-lets try to do 2 positive things.Sleep well x 
Hope ur day has not been too bad
I went today to Cancer research group and a lovely man just sat and listened coffee I felt a purpose gain. U can just walk in they offer walks, activities. Some lovely people and groups r all over uk:blush: so I did a positive today and thought I would share
Hope ur lovely cat gives u lots loving as mine do
Just to let u know u r a lovely person:)
Hi @Gail05,Aw thats great that you had such a positive day-give yourself a pat on the back (or get your cats to do it 
).My day didn’t start off too well,i was sorting through some drawers &found a soppy love note from my Stu-i’ve not seen it before it was hidden in a notebook,he used ro hide notes everywhere for me to find&i have now found 4 since his passing,reading his words absolutely broke Me,i honestly believe he meant for me to find them after he had gone-especially after the one i found today from what he had written.I then did something positive-i booked a mammogram-never had one before because i kept putting it off-Stu was nagging me to get it done so i have an appointment next Tuesday.I went for a nice walk around the pools where we live &then spontaneously decided i wanted a chinese so walked up &got one.Just ate it now(well only half as my appetite still isn’t great).One of my cats Cleo is sat on my lap -she never leaves my side,the other one -Moglet is under next doors car trying to cool off xx
Hi. Yes must admit little things set me off. It was my hubbys shoes I found left under a table. But when I get sad I get out of chair and go make cuppa or go do summit it snaps me out of it a bit
May I say ….well done u for going for a walk. I must do that too. Wish there was a Chinese near me. There is a pub but last seven years we went only for a coffee and my hubby used to get very tired.
I am proud of u that u text me and did summit positive today
Tomorrow is a new day let’s see what we can achieve tomoz
I have 4 cats the love I get from them is priceless. Jelly, Bo, ginger and max. Max is 23 drives me nuts as expects to b carried up and downstairs
U r a lovely person
Let’s hope our pain slowly lessens
Another positive 4 both of us is that we r both going through this and so nice to text you
Sleep well I hope and night to u and ur lovely cats xxx
@Gail05 i think we should both be proud of waht we achieved today-its another day that we’ve got through.I’m so glad i have my 2 cats -i would definitely have lost the plot without them-they are both missing my partner too-especially Moglet as he was a proper Daddy’s boy-never left his side .Hopefully tomorrow we can keep going with the positives-no matter how small.Take care of yourself,give your cats a cuddle from Me &my 2.Speak soon, Night xx
Have lovely day my ginger cat esp misses his daddy but guess we have to give them extra hug too
Try look forward keep smiling sun is out 
Hope ur day has been ok. I have one cat who is daddy’s cat. And misses him
Today I sorted out my clothes, did some cleaning jobs as help others that my job but just part time. I got very sad for bout half hour but then said to myself I must snap out of it
I hope I had good day love to ur lovely cats xx
@Gail05 Good evening,glad you had a good day.I’ve just got in -spent the wvwning round some friends of ours,theyninvited me around for pizza&drinks in their garden,was lovely to get out of the house for a bit.I dyed my hair today -that has made me feel a bit better &boosted my confidence xx
So so glad u had chance to get out with people
My son called me and going round today so that nice I don’t know friends wish I had some
@Gail05 had a bad day today didn’t see anyone at all so went for a walk around the pools by where i live &then to shop.Felt a bit sorry for myself for a while so listened to some of my favourite music -that cheered me up.Hopefully tomorrow will be a more positive day.Hope you had a lovely day with your son xx
Oh sorry it late. Yes I find weekends even harder but hey I’m proud of you. U did a walk…… well done u did not just sit
I had ok day saw my late hubby best friend and wife they invited me cuppa this morn then aftern son wife took me garden centre
Then I hate time I have come home to the empty house. So dead, silent hate it
Then I played sing You r my world by villa and got very sad so turned it off I’m just off bed. Hate being so alone esp at night. How do we ever build a life gain aye
Guess one day at a time
So glad I met u on here
Hope ur beautiful cats cuddling up to u
Let’s b grateful we have met on here I am very lucky
I send u hug and let’s see what tomorrow brings
Night to u xxx🤗
Sorry the word Villa:grin:sh say Cilla black. Hope that gives u a giggle 
Haha that did make me laugh-in knew it was a Cilla Black song -i would’ve been very confused if i didn’t.i’m so glad you had a nice day.I also hate coming back to an empty house-my heart sinks everytime i walk through the front door.Bedtime i always dread-i stay up as late as possible to avoid it-our bedroom was the last place i saw my partner before the ambulance came to take him to hopsital-4 hours later he passed:sob:My cat cleo is giving me plenty of cuddles -even though its too hot,hope your cats are giving you plenty of love too.Tomorrow will be a better day.Sleep well my friend,speak soon.Night night 
xx
Awwww lovely to hear from u. In evening when it gets lonely I love reading ur text thank u
U r very similar to me I hate walking into my husbands room…. We slept separate coz he snored😁 a little giggle. My husband sat up one morn fell back on bed and died. He had oesophagi cancer 7 yr off and on. Went to pulmonary lining. He could not breathe very well and died lack breathing so I feel awful pain when I walk in his room so I went out bought flowery duvet made room girlie. Just made me feel better than walk into HIS room
Saw my sister made cottage pie grandsons tomoz
I try keep. Yay. But the hours drag. Suddenly my home became a house after he died. So damn gloomy empty. But oh boy my cats give me love Also love to ur two beautiful cats. Xxx
That sh say I try keep busy 
I text the word Yay:joy:
Aw bless you,your messages always make me smile.You’re exactly right-i say its not my home now its just a house-it was our home but now its just an empty shell,there are reminders of him everywhere.Everytime i change the bedding on our bed i can’t bring myself to wash his pillowcase -it smells of him &his aftershave.Crazy the things we do to get through each day isn’t it?xxx
Yes I know what u mean. I feel very alone in this big wide world. I hope we eventually find some purpose
Tomorrow a new day gain night to you.
I have ordered a book that is supposed to b very good called
A pocket full of happiness written by Richard Grant his wife died lung cancer xxx