Yesterday it was not such a bad day. Just a few tears otherwise but not too bad. Today I started immediately crying after I woke up (why did I wake up again?) and cannot stop. I am hugging the cardigan he wore last. and his smell is still there. I thought it would get a bit (just a bit) easier - how wrong I was. I am already taking my Kalms tablets before eating anything. My life changed so terribly and there is no way out. Hopefully, it will get better later on. I try to think of something positive but it is not working.
8 Likes
Feel just the same its only 6 weeks for me .Its torture every day and i just hope it will be my time soon he was my life just carnt see a future now the lonliness is the worst and long bank holidays awful its so cruel can only hope in time it will not hurt so much hugs xxx
9 Likes
Sending hugs. I too hate the weekends. 8 weeks today for me and I have spent all weekend in tears. Life just seems so pointless. When will we feel any better? Xx
7 Likes
Hugs to you too on this sad scary journey seems endless thank goodness we all understand xxx
6 Likes
@Hope5 @Annaessex @Jan17 . I too feel overwhelmed today. I woke up to tears and have cried on and off all day. 9 weeks ago on a Sunday Pete had a cardiac arrest whilst cycling. I feel awful today and just want to lie down and switch off
Sundays are the worst.
6 Likes
I can’t stop crying either, it’s as if every thought provokes a memory and reminds me again that he has gone.
He died so unexpectedly, I am still in disbelief, and shock. I am so heartbroken I do not know what to do with myself. So unbelievably sad. I can’t bare my life without him.
5 Likes
Hi everyone so sorry for your losses too .I understand what you are going through and its just an horrendous exsistence right now .Hope we can just support each other and hope the pain will ease in time .life to me just seems pointless right now love to you all xxx
7 Likes
3 months on from loosing my gorgeous fantastic wife sue. Making myself do things as i know sue wouldn’t want me to sit and stagnate. Felt like sue is pushing me to finish baby blue our trike off.but sat crying last night after realising she would never see me riding it .dont like this new life without sue .yes i have my daughter and stepson dave family .but i miss snuggling up on the sofa or laying in bed watching TV
5 Likes
I know what you mean. I miss his hugs and holding hands and the laughs we had when we were on holidays, on our short trips to Brighton, or visiting his parents. I miss going to the Proms or our trips to the cinema. It will never be the same. Even watching TV or listening to music is different now. We only can hope it will be more bearable in the future. Sending lots of love and hugs. Just one more day to go, we can make it.
5 Likes
Thank you .my stepson is over tomorrow to help me with shopping and sorting out some stuff i can’t face doing yet
2 Likes
It has been 5 months and 1 week ago that I went to work and got a call from my son to say that dad had collapsed. Time I got home he was gone. Just 53 years old. No closure and no answers. I cry every day and miss my husband so much and feel so lonely without him. Miss his hugs and playing with my hair. I used to play with his hair and pull out the odd grey hair. I’m so angry that his life has been robbed and our future plans and dreams have gone. Life is so unfair and cruel. The realisation that he isn’t coming back is hitting me hard. We were happy and enjoyed our holidays and simple things in life. Just celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary. I just wish I wake up from this nightmare. Hugs to you all xx
6 Likes
Sending you love and hugs. I was almost 26 years together with my husband and 15 years and two months married. I also cannot believe that he is not coming home.
4 Likes
Love and hugs to you.i was with my gorgeous wife sue for 22years.married in February 2016 and I still consider myself married.but the realisation that physically sue isn’t here really hits me at various times throughout the day especially at night. I feel so lost and alone without sue
4 Likes
Its so hatd isnt it. Yesterday was a really bad day. I cooked a roast for my mum who has dementia. My lovely Pete was the cook and would have normally had done this. He loved peeling vegetables! I cried through all the prep.when i drove to pick her up there were loads of police cars all in the same place on a bridge whete my husband had his cardiac arrest. It was a woman on the bridge threatening to kill herself. So tragic but oh so triggering for me. They were still there when i returned but they had managed to get her to move nearer the bank. Ive been in a bad state since and trying to make sense of it.
4 Likes
I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time again. Sending you love and hugs.
3 Likes
Sending you hugs
1 Like
Its been 4 months 10 days since my soulmate of 25 years died in his sleep aged 43. Every day is pure pain anxiety and just hopeless. Ive gone back to work to distract myself from my pain and loss but when i come home the realisation that he will never ever be home or come home breaks my heart. He was too young to die at 43 years old. I just hope that l can die now ,but i wake up every morning and go through the pain again. I miss him
3 Likes
It’s so hard. It’s all the little things that remind me that I am never going to see him again. I just opened the fridge in the garage and found the bottle of champagne that I had bought for his birthday. What do I do with it? He never made his birthday.
I want to talk to him, hug him, cuddle him but instead I’m alone and cancelling all our plans. Life is so unfair.
6 Likes
It’s dreadful
2 Likes