Me, randomly bursting into tears not because of something new
but because of everything I’ve been holding inside for too long.
No one really knows the weight of my thoughts, the storm in my mind,
the way I carry pain without letting it show.
They see the smile, hear the laughter but they don’t see the silent war within me,
or the moments when my heart aches for no reason.
So I cry alone because sometimes tears speak the words I’ll never say.
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Hello Alone 1, I completely understand how you feel. My partner of 20 years passed away 5 weeks ago. I understand how you feel when you say that tears speak the words that you will never say. I have so much to sort out and get through by myself, friends try to support me but they don’t know what I am going through as they get to go home to their partners. I am sending you love and hugs. Please know that you are not alone xx
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Hi Spiky1 and Alone1
Yes, i get all that. Havinv so many things to sort out, when you just feel like crawling into bed, when you are just not functioning, when you are at your lowest ebb, is bloody hard.
People not understanding, because they are going home to their partners, feels crushing.
Pushing on when nothing seems to be working hurts, but somehow we seem to do it.
I am just doing what i can until i am mentally stronger, no more, no less. I hope this gets easier and that the fog lifts at some point.
Sending my best to you both.
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