Hi, oh I so feel for you, brave face and don’t worry about crying because when it comes to it you will be fine. You have thought it through and that will help. I felt just the same but it was with the family of my daughter-in-law and I was told once you had gone through all the different stages then the one right for you would appear, well I did cry but they just accepted it and moved on, so really no big deal, funny really because I have such a difficult time telling them that I am happy here not in Greece!
Yes, that’s another story but take tissues and stop worrying, that is such a waste of your energy which right now will be in short supply. Don’t worry about what others think, it’s about you not them, you are the one grieving because you lost the one person in your life that meant everything. It’s all about ‘you’ yes I do mean that.
So go open hearted, when you get home that’s different.
I will be thinking of you and sending you my love.