My husband and I have been married 21 years and never spent a night apart. As he lies dying in hospital, I am alone, no friends or family. It was he, our cats and me. I have found out abruptly that aside from losing my love, I am terrified of night. I lay in bed looking out the window all night, sure that someone is going to break in and kill me, my cats will die because no one will check on me and my dieing husband will think I’ve abandoned him.
I honestly hope I’m the only one so afraid of life, afraid of darkness and afraid of death.
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I think that your fear of the night is understandable. Since my partner died last month, I find myself repeatedly checking doors and windows at night to make sure they are closed and locked.
Take care. Sending hugs.
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Hopefully i can bring some comfort, i was exactly the same!!! My husband spent 2.5 years in and out of hospital and omg i was terrified at night and i have dogs!!! My brain would like you make up the scenarios of bad things, i slept on the sofa for ages, sadly my husband passed away in june so i now have every night alone, i have made it back to the bedroom and for me in time it got easier, i no longer watch any tv that will scare me and that can be even a drama on itv,so i am not talking horror movies here, so my routine now is either watch something light or listen to favourite music, i like to read but this took back seat as i couldnt do it, but slowly getting back to it. I do hope that you can have peaceful nights and it becomes less scary, because it is awful isnt it. The dreadful scary knot on the pit of stomach, remember its your brain making this up, acknowledge it and then let it go. Good luck xx
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I’m still mostly sleeping on the sofa (my back is not happy) but I have made it to bed a couple of times. I’m glad things are improving for you @Shabelabob .
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Thank you for your care. I do hope this will pass as I can’t sleep daytime to make up for it as I’m sure you can relate.
It’s quite embarrassing being an adult afraid of the dark. My husband was my rock in all ways.
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