People say, you’ll move on, I don’t want to, to move on would make me feel like I am leaving my beloved Dani behind, moving on without her ? Things will get better, people say ? The pain will ease ? If that happened I’d feel like I had deserted her, moving on and leaving her behind. As so so painful as it is, my pain is the last connection with her, if my pain goes ? What do I have left ? Ever fading memories 
So though this pain is so much more than I can bear….its all I have left of her now, and I don’t want to lose it. I’m in this ‘club’ now along with so many others, our grief is deep and very personal, we say we understand one another’s grief, I don’t think so, this is a road we all travel alone, love to you all xx
6 Likes
@norrie
I feel your pain. It’s only been 7 months for me but I can say that your memories will not fade, the deep love you have for Dani will keep them alive in your mind & heart.
All we can hope is that in time the memories of the sad times surrounding our loved ones ends will recede more into the background allowing the happier memories to spend longer at the front.
You hurt so much because you loved so much. And it is that love that will be your true connection to your Dani forever.
3 Likes
Thank you, thank you so much x
Hi Norrie,
I understand exactly how you feel. Its been 2yrs since my mum passed and I hear things like moving on bug I am not ready. I don’t ever want to to be honest. I am trying to live alongside my grief bec it’s always going to be there. That’s where I want it to be. Right alongside me. That way in my heart I will feel my mum is always with me but in a different dimension.
It’s very raw for you so take things slowly and plan very small steps for each day. Get yourself stronger so you can deal or fight the grief.In the beginning I set small targets for each morning and afternoon. They were tiny targets but massive at the time such as making a cuppa as I couldn’t even function enough to do that. Now I set weekly targets /tasks/goals and they are usually projects around the house or garden. It has taken a long time to get to this stage.
Post on here as often as you want to. People on here truly understand and will help you through suggestions and lovely replies.
Sending love and strength to you
Deborah
2 Likes
Thank you so much x