This weekend is so hard for me. Two years ago I lost my sister in law in traumatic circumstances, then last year my Grandad passed exactly a year to the same day. It’s my birthday. On Wednesday next week my sister buries her stillborn son.
This week has been awful, I’ve struggled to lift myself out of the fear of this bloody weekend. Now my sister in laws case is all over the news websites and I’m struggling not to spend all day going over it.
99% of the time I can think about all this and I can be sad but manageable. I don’t know how this weekend will ever not terrify me forever.
Would be interested to know how people cope in the days leading up to an anniversary, birthday, Christmas. All the biggies that just remind us of the milestones our lost ones are missing.