I returned to work this week on a phased return. My nerves were a little frayed and I tried not to be offended when people looked at me with “poor you” eyes - I’m sure they didn’t know what to say.
The worst moments were when I left my workplace. The sobs came readily, driving to my house with no one waiting to offer me a cup of tea and ask me how my day was. No hugs and kisses, no conversations about what sport our son has recently taken to or who ate the last biscuit.
Without my husband I feel as if I’m drowning in sadness. I miss him so much.
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Going back to work can be so tough, @Lonelyplanet. You’re not alone with this sadness and emptiness. The community is here for you 
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So so sorry for your loss and the horrible loneliness.
I get some comfort in listening to music whilst I am rattling around in an empty apartment.
Not interested in socialising, nor am I ready for new interests or hobbies.
I have joined a few other groups where I can chat. I like to have long candid chats with strangers, as I find it difficult to talk with friends and family, mainly because I lie to them, “yes I am doing fine”
Take care
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Thank you @Tony66 and @Seaneen .
I’m starting Cruse counselling next week and I’m hoping I can work through this nightmare.
Take care.
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Lonely planet .I really hope that cruse works for you. When I rang cruse they reduced me to tears and kept telling me that I had to wait 3 months and it was exactly 3 months when I rang them.good luck
Hi @Martyn2
I’m sorry you’re going through this awful time too 
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Cruse also made me wait almost 6 months after my beloved husband died. I’ve had the first session, and to be honest, I could’ve done with it much earlier on. Now, I have gone forward in my journey and am not really benifitting from it so may give it up. Luckily, I have counselling through my employer and this is certainly helpful.
Please post here anytime - this forum held my hand in the first few months when all I felt was emptiness and sadness.
Take care.
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Aaw thank you. This forum is a godsend. I lost my gorgeous beautiful late wife sue to pancreatic cancer on the 1st February 2023.also recovering from an above knee amputation on the 7th March this year
I’m so sorry @Martyn2
Life without our loved ones is so hard isn’t it?
Wishing you a speedy recovery from you operation. Look after yourself.
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