Been on these forums now a few months maybe even a year, I forget when I joined. I loss my mum in August 23. I had a lot to deal with on my own being younger then my sister. Mum like a lot of people didn’t want to deal with her own demise. So it was all left to me to sort out and organize whilst working at the same time.
I’m not working at the moment because of health. So I’m more at home between runs and excessive time spent at the hospital. It’s kept me busy and distracted me from my loss but also has raised more questions in my head too. Questions I still don’t have the answers too and never probably will.
I have invested time in spirituality to help me with losing mum and what awaits me too. Life changed since losing mum and then changed again for me regards health. It’s like being plucked from 1 existence and put down in another and then it happening all over again. I’m grateful to have a roof over my home but it still feels like mum’s home but without her.
I haven’t got the answers, wished I had!
On reflection you deal with the loss and the emotions that come with that. Then as the dust settles and life continues, the emptiness, the isolation kicks in. We came here at first for support to be around others like us. But that changes over time too as time flows. I didn’t come here for friendship or communication but it all changes. Our lives change too and thoughts kick in our long have we got left on this planet ? Days blend into other days and maybe our homes become prisons of isolation ? I shared home with mum since birth right Upto August last year.